Many Good beginings left incomplete

Life is so miserable sometimes..Nothing works out your way..By writing this...I just ask myself , Have you ever tried continued to do what you had started ..atleast the one which you had started with so much of enthusiasm.. The answers is no..sometime you dream big that, you will do this and that ...at the end you be a smoky joker laughing at yourself...I had doing nothing after I started few things and even I will feel painful to move my ass....I know something is happening to me..But I Could not stop that .. I do not know where this will lead to ..Hoping My sub conscious mind will take care of everything ...I am trustful about that ,since more times I have felt subconscious drives good ..I have this experience felt when my sub conscious drives my Bike good where the external one is thinking something..It stops at signal when it is red, it is slows on speed breakers..it switch on indicators when it has to ..May be this looks foolish..the truth is subconscious is one which always drives you...
I am not writing this blog to tell everyone that i am ful of S*** ..This is to track me that I went through this phase of my life successfully...

Why the hell ..Human prefer Short Pleasures sacrificing the Long peaceful pleasures for it..Why does Man do something wrong that he knows that he is doing wrong ... succumbing to the situations and time..What will be best possible motivation for a person who dont have a dependency , who dont have desire on money ,property ..? what is it will keep him going ? The questions are more on my sides but there are no answers to it..That how life moves on..

I still dont know the purpose of my life..the personal calling as Alchemist says..when will I find it ?

I am not what Am I...I know this and I feel this..Why the Hell is this happening to me?
When will be the freedom for me? Where do I belong ? The only thing that makes me Happy is football..Even that sometimes makes me worst when I dont play well..Why is it.. there is pain eitherway..even doing what you like or even not doing what you want to..?

I don't have fear for life ... I don't have fear for Death ...But then I dont have a Hope...
What is it with No fear and No Hope ...Is the life worth with this..
What is it I should do ..to instill Hope to me keeping the 'NO fear' also with me...

Sooner or Later I will change and will write a Blog with a successful event .. Thus I am instilling the Hope on me..

I want to change myself ..so I left myself to change me not to see any movies which i do as regular activity..even I did the change but then I dont feel I am doing some useful things given those time..That change have not given useful change for me..Once in every week I go to pub for some music and booze with my friend , i stopped it for a change for atleast two months..this time i found a change ..I started hating beer ...what does it gives a change..nothing.. Rock music with Beer makes you dance ..rock music with some cocktail juices makes you to close your ears with both hands..

Peoples who read this will for sure think, WTF this idiot is upto..sometime Life gives you more to Learn when you accept you are an idiot ...Yes i am an idiot now..All my actions at the moment are idiotic..But time will change..so do me..

I will araise as the time evolves..